Burning Cals

Just back from the gym and I'm completely knackered. It was fun though I did really well on the cross trainer which has been the death of me since I started using it. Managed to up the resistance another 2 levels and went none stop for 10 minutes before completely collapsing 10 seconds near the end. Did 20 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the exercise bike and a few weights in between to strengthen my arms.

After the gym I went for a bit of a walk around town with Angela (My sister) and I managed to pick up a really good pair of headphones for my phone so I can listen to my music without the worry of them falling out. Looked around some game shops saw a DS lite for £59.99 which my sister had to drag me away from. (Recovering game addict :P world of warcraft and many more mmo's have taken precious time away from my life) Wandered around for a bit more (I have a tendency to just walk around with no real purpose). Angela bought some stuff for her friends new dog which I went to see after I went for a nice meal in the local Chinese. Through it all though I've been thinking of Marianna my mind really is all the way in Ireland.

I really hope I can get work soon my CV is lacking in a lot of things never finished college and my high school grades aren't all that great either. For the most part though I mention things are looking up finding work is what makes me depressed. In the current market there is just hardly any jobs going and the ones that are available I can't apply for or if I can they are given to a better qualified person. I'm not one to complain but I don't know how I'm supposed to get work experience if no one will give me chance enough to prove I can do the actual work.

Text Robbert about going to the cinema when we go up to see him next week in Stirling so that should be fun. Going to go watch drag me to hell which I honestly can't wait to see as I'm a huge fan of the Director. He was responsible for creating one of my favourite horror movies of all time Evil dead 1,2 and Army of Darkness. So that was pretty much everything that went on today apart from somethings here and there. Burned a lot of calories today and then put them right back on lol.

Got an appointment with the trust soon so I'm hoping the guy can help me find work or at least put me on some courses which can help my chances of getting work. Its fairly hard pushing myself like this when I have depression I'm constantly fighting myself to have enough will power to get out of bed to do all these things I've been doing. Not to mention the fact I have to start getting my dad out of the house down to the swimming baths. Hes over weight so not sure if thats the best excercise for him or just to go walking. I wouldn't mind if he tagged along at the gym the people there could help him figure out what is best to get him healthy without straining himself. Anyway I've rambled on enough as it is will blog later if I can push myself to work on my book.