Burning Cals

Just back from the gym and I'm completely knackered. It was fun though I did really well on the cross trainer which has been the death of me since I started using it. Managed to up the resistance another 2 levels and went none stop for 10 minutes before completely collapsing 10 seconds near the end. Did 20 minutes on the treadmill and 20 minutes on the exercise bike and a few weights in between to strengthen my arms.

After the gym I went for a bit of a walk around town with Angela (My sister) and I managed to pick up a really good pair of headphones for my phone so I can listen to my music without the worry of them falling out. Looked around some game shops saw a DS lite for £59.99 which my sister had to drag me away from. (Recovering game addict :P world of warcraft and many more mmo's have taken precious time away from my life) Wandered around for a bit more (I have a tendency to just walk around with no real purpose). Angela bought some stuff for her friends new dog which I went to see after I went for a nice meal in the local Chinese. Through it all though I've been thinking of Marianna my mind really is all the way in Ireland.

I really hope I can get work soon my CV is lacking in a lot of things never finished college and my high school grades aren't all that great either. For the most part though I mention things are looking up finding work is what makes me depressed. In the current market there is just hardly any jobs going and the ones that are available I can't apply for or if I can they are given to a better qualified person. I'm not one to complain but I don't know how I'm supposed to get work experience if no one will give me chance enough to prove I can do the actual work.

Text Robbert about going to the cinema when we go up to see him next week in Stirling so that should be fun. Going to go watch drag me to hell which I honestly can't wait to see as I'm a huge fan of the Director. He was responsible for creating one of my favourite horror movies of all time Evil dead 1,2 and Army of Darkness. So that was pretty much everything that went on today apart from somethings here and there. Burned a lot of calories today and then put them right back on lol.

Got an appointment with the trust soon so I'm hoping the guy can help me find work or at least put me on some courses which can help my chances of getting work. Its fairly hard pushing myself like this when I have depression I'm constantly fighting myself to have enough will power to get out of bed to do all these things I've been doing. Not to mention the fact I have to start getting my dad out of the house down to the swimming baths. Hes over weight so not sure if thats the best excercise for him or just to go walking. I wouldn't mind if he tagged along at the gym the people there could help him figure out what is best to get him healthy without straining himself. Anyway I've rambled on enough as it is will blog later if I can push myself to work on my book.

Dusty Post

Dusts off the old blog site, ok so things for me seem to be going pretty good. Just recently back from seeing my girlfriend in Ireland and apart from the long, depressive and endless job hunt things seem to be picking up. Been in a right depression for a few months now Marianna has been :) so good to me even though I'm a pain in ass most of the time when I feel down. Even started writing down things for the story I've always wanted to write.

Me a writer always makes me laugh considering how horrible my grammar, spelling and general use of the english language is but you know what they say everyone has at least one book in them (Just not a very good one). Going to save up a bit of money and get a proper work desk so I can get back to drawing. Originally this is what this blog was used for but since then I deleted all that work. I want try my hardest to get my art skills up to a point were I can turn my story into a comic.

Not a clue were to start from though I've been and done all the things you need to do to practice and to be honest my hearts not into doing that anymore. Want to practice but don't want it to be mindnumingly boring. Been reading Batman: The Dark Knight returns and I have to say its probably one of the best comics I've read in a while really dark for a batman comic which from my perspective is a plus. I really love reading comics or manga with a more mature feel to it. Like this manga called Monster which is about a surgeon who makes the choice of saving a young boy over the mayor and turns out the boy is pure evil. Then another manga I've read called Death note very dark manga. Anyway my point is its really hard to find comics or manga with a dark or mature feel to it so its refreshing to read something with that feel to it.

I use to love pure action comics and manga but now I just can't pull myself to read them they just feel so shallow and I generally can guess the end before I even finish them.

I also have a twitter which I also need to start using again www.twitter.com/dktens

On my to do list:

Finish reading my terry pratchet novels
Read the rest of my hellboy comics
Write some of my story or at least ideas for possible scenes in it
Stop eating o.O biscuits they are bad for me